I am trying to let go today. I need to because I can feel the weight in my chest. I hold on to many things: worry, decisions, overwhelm, the past. You name it; I tend to carry it.
However, the holding has me stuck in some quick sand today, and I am finding it difficult to move. I think it might be easier to just stay, but I open my blog, and with each key stroke I am determined to release some of the weight.
First, I am letting go of the decision of participating in the SOL challenge. I am writing.
Second, I need to let go of the worry I feel about my daughter who lives far away. I text her, and when she does not respond for a while, I think something is wrong. It is like second nature. My mind thinks of every possible thing that could be wrong, so I am writing.
Third, I need to let go of how overwhelmed I am with work and the feeling that I should be working all the time. Instead, I am writing.
Lastly, and probably the hardest, I need to let go of a dear friend who passed away due to ALS a few days ago. I have not come to terms with the fact that she is gone. And so, as I write this, I know this is my first step to acceptance and what she would want me to do - move forward one step at a time.
And with each word comes a deep breath, and with each exhale another thought. I don't need to hold it all in; I let it go on a page.
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